My disorganization is sort of like a birth defect. Organization is something that I strive for in order to keep my life manageable. But still, I am bad at organzing my time, my desk, not to mention finance. I didn't pay the price for my disorganzation until I went to graduate school in the U.S. Both of my advisors (Physics and MSE) are so good at organizing all sorts of data. It is such a breeze for them. My disorganizaton had given me a headache to deal with hundreds of reference papers and plenty of research data. God has given me many obstacles (or chances) so that I can be trained to overcome my disorganization. HE KNOWS my birth defect.
I did suffer and stumble but Jesus walked with me. Later I picked up how to be more organized along the way of my research. However, the obstacles never stop coming. Now, my job requires dealing with more tremendous amount of data. What is more challenging is I need to make a systematic model out of this chaos. It is indeed a higher level of organization I ought to strive to achieve. How am I going to sort out this chaos? I am suffering and scratching my head again.
I can't help but admire God who knows my weakness so well. HE always train me and develop me through all kinds of obstacles. All right, I surrender to You, Jesus. I do not fear what is lying ahead as long as You walk with me.
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